The Beginning of the End

So I definitely haven't been doing what I have set out to do. I have failed myself, and I have failed the readers of this blog, and I feel ashamed. I ended up gaining to much weight during the holidays, and not exercising at all. There aren't any excuses for it at all. I would just like to say that I am sorry. I really want to make this the beginning of the end of the battle of the bulge.

With an ending always comes new beginnings though. I am a firm believer of that thought. This past month I have really been focusing on what I eat. I don't eat well, and i haven't been making healthy decisions. I like to eat when I'm bored, I eat when I'm emotional. Food is a comfort object for me. It's like the worst relationship you have ever had. It promises delight, but ends up giving you grief. You know what they say, "A moment of the lips, forever of the hips." So after some talk with family, and a lot of self reflection, I am taking this commitment to lose the weight.

I weigh 221 pounds. Last week I weighed 224 pounds. I am happy I am making a self conscious effort to lose all this extra weight. I am hoping to get down to 150 pounds. It's a reasonable goal, but one that will require hard work, determination, and a little fortitude.

Today I joined a website called CalorieKing. It's a web food and exercise diary that helps track all the calories you eat, and how many calories burned from exercise. It's main idea is to lose the weight 1-2 pounds a week, learning to maintain a healthy body weight, and to make smart choices. There is also a community board where you can talk to others. It does cost money, but is fairly cheap, and for the people pressed for time, you can write down on a scrap piece of paper what you ate or did, and put it on through your phone or later when you do have time. I know that with two children I usually don't even have time to go to the bathroom without being bothered, let alone time enough to write about what I ate and what I did for exercising. I like it so far, and it makes me more aware of what is being put into my body.
I'm hoping that with weekly weigh-ins, support from readers, and from my family that I can do this.