Falling Off the Wagon

Falling off the wagon doesn't begin to describe it...it was more like jumping off the wagon. Slowly but surely I have gotten back into my old ways and got back into a slovenly rutt. Everytime I look into the mirror, or see pictures of myself I feel disgust. I want to shed this weight. I need to shed this weight. To many reasons to begin. My children. My husband. My future children. They need me, and it makes me feel pretty sad, thinking the things that I could miss out on if I don't lose this weight. I wish Matt would really join in the effort with me. It could make it so much more easier. I am worried that with the holidays fast approaching that I am really not going to be losing it, but gaining it all back, and then some. I don't know why, but some days I feel I have no self control. I could eat everything I see, or eat disgustingly unhealthy. I feel so worried about this, it is keeping me awake right now. This is me owning up to the fact that I haven't been exercising like I should, eating right like I should, and setting a good example to my children on a healthy lifestyle.

Month 2

My second month hasn't been going well. I have been faithfull to working out, and I am now down to 205 lbs. Only 45 more pounds to go! But wait....

This isn't going to last if I don't start to eat healthier. Way healthier. I have been really bad about skipping meals ( at least breakfast and lunch). I have been really bad with soda and sweets lately as well. I need to start trying to eat unprocessed foods and more veggies and fruits into my diet. I like the thought of "eating clean" as I like to think of it. One of my friends K. had been trying a no hydrogenated oils diet for herself and family, and that is also something I would like to try. I know that with fall, comes comfort foods. I need to reinvent comfort foods for myself and family. Like squash soup. Yum! Or some dehydrated apples. I love those. I have recently been on a banana kick lately too. I like that they are slightly sweet and really filling. I didn't think I would ever want another banana in my life if you asked me five months ago, but with WIC we get those fresh fruits and veggies, and nanners are usually cheap. Go figure.

With fall comes cooler weather, which I enjoy much more than summer. I have more energy. The air smells good, and with all the pretty colors on the trees ( up here in the great north woods, most of the leaves have fallen already) motivates me to get outside. Let us hope that, come winter, I will still get a walk in. At least I have a crazy four year old who will help me get out of the house in winter. Epic snowball fights! SO enough rambling.

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